Microwave in Retrograde

So I ran my birth chart again and everything was so on point. Questioning my identity, trying to find ways to make money. Questioning my ability to have identity while being in a relationship. The whole shabang. 

I was following and then all of a sudden I couldn't when it started talking about the planets going forward and backward and how that affects my moon and sun....  I don't know but the information was on point. So I had the robot give me some affirmations and journal prompts. Here's what it came back with:

Your Saturn-return affirmations:

I do not need certainty before I begin.

I build the life I want through what I practice repeatedly.

Not every exciting idea deserves my commitment.

I can explore without abandoning what I am building.

Structure does not restrict my freedom; the right structure protects it.

I am allowed to outgrow a life that once made sense.

I choose commitments based on what matters, not what temporarily excites me.

My responsibility is not to figure out my entire future. My responsibility is to build today well.

The journal prompts, taking only 20-30 minutes:

What am I actually building right now? 2-3 things receiving real labor?

Marketing and communications - Steadymade and Battle Zone

Event planning and coordination with the gym

Coaching women

If I continued living exactly as I do now for three years, where would it take me? What about that future excites me? What concerns me?

I could easily see myself free lancing for small business doing there marketing. Documenting the culture/environment then using marketing and communications to bring people in. 

Business consulting. Figuring out how to take struggling businesses and giving them a plan to help them become successful. 

Potentially opening up my own gym, with coaches I'm familiar with. Making sure it's finance free. Run a non profit through it. I even thought about making the gym big enough to where coaches like Ashley and Kara can run yoga and silks out of it as well. 

I do think a non profit with kids. It's in the process and on my radar. it's just a slower work of labor at the moment.

What have I already outgrown but haven't fully admitted I've outgrown?

I have definitely outgrown the restaurant industry.

I've outgrown associations that don't serve me anymore. That keep me in a lower energy bubble.

I have outgrown fear paralysis. This year I have just been setting myself up to do things before I think of how ready I am to do the things. 

Where am I craving novelty because something genuinely needs to change - and where am I craving novelty because mastery has become boring?

My relationship I struggle with needing novelty. I can't tell if it's because.... I think I need to feel like my love tank is being filled and it's not just all about fulfilling his dreams and financial goals with just working jobs like a maniac and putting everything else on the side. 

Novelty in how I make money because that desperately needs to change. Chris had a good point about how I need to update my thinking on how success can still happen on the move. It's a lot more attainable now being able to work remote. I don't need to live a boring mundane life the way business owners may have needed to back in the day. There's a lot more room to live on the move or not be completely tied to an area. 

What do I want to be undeniably better at by September 2027? Skills not identity. 

Boxing and Coaching boxing. I want to train for a minimum of three amateur fights, learn all the things that come with the training so I can coach other people in the strength and conditioning realm, and technique.

I want to have marketing and communications so streamlined and automated; where I can be a month ahead in sharing posts, that way I can focus on business ideas for both Steadymade and the gym.

I want to be able to run the gym by doing its book keeping, event management, coaching apprenticeships. Basically I guess I want to learn how to run a gym. All the business side of things, the coaching side of things, knowing how to bring people in and how to run a gym that has a community impact.

Interpersonal communications. Being able to talk to anyone and everyone, but also really solidify and maintain healthy friendships. I would also love to improve my skills of being in groups, and being able to communicate efficiently and effectively while keeping the conversation inclusive to everyone (maybe I need a mindshift there; or maybe that's a skill in itself). 

What would the person I'm trying to become actually do on an ordinary Tuesday?

I'm doing a little bit of research on this one. 

The first thing that comes to my mind. Is researching and learning something relevant to business, health and fitness, non profit. Something along those lines. The robot said "successful people spend a surprising amount of time being beginners because they're continually developing capabilities.

The robot says successful people do the important before urgent, so that sounds like a good idea too. 

Spending time on the craft. Maybe I'm going into the gym to train myself, working on boxing technique or strength and conditioning. 

Tuesdays are pottery days too so I would probably make some meditative time to throw a couple things. Trim and glaze too. 

Talking to people would be good for me on a Tuesday as well. That's another goal I would like to get good at by September 2027. Improving my social skills so I can talk to anyone anywhere and actually build and maintain friendships.

What responsibility am I avoiding because accepting it would force me to change?

Working remotely, and building my own business. Learning how to work on my own schedule. On the computer. This book keeping is kicking my butt. But its a self learning process

Responsibility to train for three fights. I can feel the old tendency to sabotage the training, but another part of me is putting her head down and going for it, and it throws me in waves of back and forth. 

Experiment on my desires to explore myself. Backyard and house work. Witch work. Photography and Drawing. There's always reasons I can't or won't but they are always on my mind.

What am I carrying that isn't actually mine to carry?

Stress of finances. The status of Coach James' business. 

What deserves commitment even after it stops being exciting?

Marketing and communications. Book keeping. Marriage HA!

Finish without overthinking : By the end of this Saturn-return chapter, I want to know that I finally ______.