2026 Hunter's Moon.

 Light a candle, open your journal and explore:

What am i avoiding because it feels uncomfortable?

My women's class. The research behind it, the establishing it, promoting it. Talking to other women about it. 

which old pattern keeps following me?

Trying to fix everyone else's problems, business especially, while overriding my personal responsibility for what could be moving me forward. The pattern of procrastination mixed in with self-sabotage.

Where do I need stronger boundaries?

There's been a lot of misunderstandings lately with I feel like everyone so putting up boundaries about what was communicated, what wasn't communicated, and how the communication can improve. 

What am I carrying that no longer belongs to me?

Me picking at my face especially when I'm stressed or in the car. I don't like the feeling of bumps or scabs on my face but when I look in the mirror and see red spots everywhere there's always that "what have I done to myself" feeling. I know that's a childhood thing. It's a habit I picked up from my mom. I don't want to carry it any longer.

What truth am I finally ready to acknowledge?

I think the biggest truth coming, is that life is about to level up and I need to hold on for dear life. No more mediocre living, no more being broke, no more being a fly on the wall. Chris and I are about to REALLY put our name out into the world, and I need to be okay with who I am in order to rock that public persona, but also the person I am behind closed doors. Right now it's just mom and wife, and that's starting to solidify but I'm about to step it up to a whole lot of business responsibilities. I'm excited but it's new so the butterflies are there. 

Write honestly without forcing yourself to find an answer to everything.

I have a lot of imposter syndrome going on, mixed with hiding behind other people. I've always known I didn't want to be in the spotlight. That I rocked the behind the scenes operation, but my soul apparently has another idea in mind for me. I've expanded myself out to Tampa, I'm getting pretty comfortable in the boxing world and I love every minute of it, and yet I can feel myself still staying on the outside of the community because I'm nervous to feel like I belong inside the circle. Which is totally unnecessary because it's the type of community that's open to everyone. I talk to pro boxers, I fist bump pro bare knuckle fighters, my good friend is a manager for pros. I'm respected by all of them. I mean I have a Coach James that's trusting me with his business to help him run it and help coordinate the events that go on there as well. 

My sanguine has definitely been kicking in as well. I know book keeping will be such a successful gig for me, but the learning part has been so dry and not appeasing so I've been putting it off. I mean i've spent almost all year trying to get three certifications which is just flat out silly especially because I have two and a half clients sitting here waiting for me. I know I need to just get it done, I'm on the third certification for crying out loud. I know the learning is boring but with this full moon I want to release the imposter syndrome and invite the proactivity it's going to take to be ready for Battle Zone to take off, for Steadymade to take off and for my sake Schell's booking. I want Shell's Booking LLC to be a legitamate business that makes a liveable wage off of. I want to work part time for small businesses that need help with straightening out their finances and keep them in check so they can go out and serve the world the best way they know how. 

I've been incredibly preoccupied with the abundance coming to me and I don't want that to be what I think about. I do really enjoy my life, making a difference in the ways I've been able to do for a James, for a Corey, for my husband, for the people on the fight team. I've been thinking a lot about as a kid how I wanted to end it so bad, and I remember specifically hearing a voice, ask you're really going to deprive a lifetime of people your presence? I got a visual of all the potential people I could've met swirling around in my head, I thought about my sister and my parents and I decided then that ending things just wasn't going to be an option. Now, creeping up on 30 to think back on all the people I've been so connected to over the years, whether they're still in my life or not....money can't touch that. If I was in school and working a 9-5 I wouldn't have met the people in my life and if I knew what I was missing out on. I would be devastated. Another belief that needs to be released this full moon is the preoccupation with monetary abundance. My life is so incredibly full with all of my relationships I have. My life in Florida is so prosperous. My marriage is one that I think a lot of people would kill for. I mean I wouldn't say I've been completely blind to the abundance in my life but I sure as hell realize I could be so much more grateful. I told my husband before our house went on the market that I felt I had so much more opportunity down here that I wouldn't have out west. Whether I spoke that into existence, or my higher self knew I'm finally to the point where, I feel completely blessed with so much abundance I haven't even know how to handle most of it. But day by day, I practice my spirituality, I practice discipline, I practice listening to my body, I practice learning one thing everyday. And today is October 25th and I am incredibly proud of where I'm at.

2026 isn't over yet, but hands down this has probably been the best year of my life. I finally learned what it's like to do me, and do it well. Vision boards work. Manifestation works. Magic is real. Spirituality makes humanity beautiful. Humanity makes spirituality one big adventure and what a hell of a mix that is. Cheers! To the Hunters Moon 2026!

Tarot Pull:

What am I aiming to manifest before winter?

8 of Swords: Freedom begins when you believe it's possible. Challenge your inner narrative. Be brave and take the first step. That's how freedom begins.

What hidden obstacles are in my way?

Ace of Wands: my fear. Ace of wands says to "say yes, why not do it now?" Trust your gut and do it anyway even if there's no roadmap. 

Imagery has promises of light and sprouted leaves of vitality. Promises from the divine but knowing the obstacles good and bad to get there, but doing it anyway. My fear is in the way. Maybe even the feeling of unworthiness of the journey to the promised victory...

What hidden truth is ready to be revealed?

The Hermit: my answers are within, I need to take the time to sit with my higher self for answers to learn my personal truth. I need to build that relationship with my higher self. Journal. Meditate. Sit and Listen.

Five of swords: winning the battle but feeling empty afterwards.

After some pendulum work it's saying the tension is in my marriage about me not speaking up. There's obviously a lot of that looking into going into business with my husband. TBD on that one. Apparently I need to kick that can down the road. Things have been great lately but he just took a week of to carve wood. TBD...

What areas need my protection?

Three of Swords:Pain is a part of the human experience. Name it. Feel it. Heal from it.

Nine of Pentacles:When your hard work has paid off. abundance and indepedence. Confidence in your own accomplishments, celebrate what happens when you trust yourself.

Three of Pentacles: "Work with what -- and who -- you've got. Seek out allies, give credit where it's due, and keep growing your skill set. Whether you're leading or learning, your contribution matters. Show up with excellence, stay open to feedback, and remember: success is rarely a solo act." (Tarot.com)

Six of Cups: Reach back in time without getting stuck, innocence, find trasures and lessons from the past. What parts of you long to be remembered? Welcome them. Listen to them. Let them teach you how to trust again.

Temperance: Archangel Michael. One foot in the water, one foot on land. Patience, moderation and spiritual flow. Deep breaths. Integration not swinging. Bring together what seems contradictory into something new, meaningful and sustainable. "Stay open to middle paths, creative solutions, and gentle adjustments. Whether it's your health, your emotions, your relationships, or your mindset, balance comes from consistent tending, not from one big breakthrough." (Tarot.com) 

What strength will carry me through the winter?

The High Priest: find your teachers but make sure they are worthy of youro time. Find a teacher, recomit to spiritual practice or digging into something that seems ancient but still relevant today.